When LOVE STORY ends in WHITE HORSE.

After how many days, I think I left this blog almost 1 year and a half...
here I am, cleaning the dusts that good old days did.

Actually, andami ng nangyari sa akin sa loob ng halos isang taon at kalahati na wala ako dito.
Ayun, tambay sa tumblr. (follow me kittenfurry.tumblr.com). Marami na ring nagdaan na tao sa buhay ko.

at syempre, tulad ng nakagawian, pumupunta ako dito pag alam kong wala na akong matakbuhan.

Tulad ngayon, alam ko na pag nagsulat ako dito, alam ko na masasabi ko na kung anong nararamdaman ko ng hindi na kailangang hati hatiin sa 120 characters para ma status sa twitter.
Ayoko namang mag nobela sa FB kasi andun naman ang nanay ko, tita ko, at kung sino sino pa.

Ayoko may pakialamera dun. Isa lang naman ang pinapayagan kong makialam sa buhay ko e. yung kapatid ko. Hay.

O sya, umpisahan na natin.

November 16. may isa akong lalaking nakilala thru social media. Syempre, techie ako no.
22 years old din. marami kaming pagkakapareho. At syempre, alam nyo naman na hindi ko talaga alam paano ang ma "fall in love". Kaya sa mga nagdaang mga araw, unti unti akong nahulog. Ang bait kasi ng loko. napaka flowery ng mga sinasabi. yung tipong hindi ka makaka hindi. may sarili na nga kaming tawagan. First time kong hindi mabitawan ang cellphone ko kahit nasa DFA ako.

Kahapon, (November 21) o diba, after 5 days, nagtanong ako sa kanya. "hindi ka ba nako - confuse?"
ayun medyo natagalan ata bago nya na gets. ;)

sunod sunod na pangyayari, hanggang sa huling nagtext sya kaninang umaga ng Good Morning. At di nasundan.

For the second time, nangyari na naman to sa akin. (Wala kasi akong kadala dala pasensya naman). Ang masama, mas malalim ang hinulugan ko ngayon. sabi nila, look before you fall. Ang ginawa ko kasi Fall before you Look. kainis. sobrang baliktad. nagmadali naman kasi ako. Sobra akong nag expect. Sobra akong naniwala na, "oo, baka sya na nga. kasi tanggap nya kung anong hitsura ko, katawan ko, utak ko, at kung ano ano pa". pero grabe naman.

In a blink of an eye. Ayun na, lumipad na. Pusang gala. Ang sakit e. sobra. Iniisip ko nalang, oo 22 palang naman ako. Mayroon jan na para sa akin. medyo nadapa at na traffic lang. Minsan gusto kong tanungin kung asan na ba sya at ako susundo sa kanya. hehe.

Karma. Oo minsan inisip ko din na karma ko to. Medyo gaga kasi ako pagdating sa lalaki noon. Hehe, akala ko kagandahan. Alam nyo na yun.

Babawi ako. Syempre, ako pa. hindi ako papataob. O ayan, nag rant na ako kanina kaya medyo gumagaan na. (Although medyo hard pa rin), hindi ko sya i blo block. Kahit nagawa nyang ipa download sa akin ang Skype sa CP ko. Kahit friends kami sa FB, nag fa-follow-an kami sa twitter at IG, may Viber pa, hinding hindi ko sya i blo-block.

Nakakainis. ang nakakainis lang kasi, ang dami ko ng balak. Ang dami ko ng plano. Plano na makita sya, plano na makasama sya.

Magiging Drawing lang pala lahat. hayy..ayan na tumutulo na luha ko tuloy. hehe.

don't worry, kaya ko naman to.

Ipapakita ko sa kanya na kaya ko namang tumayo na wala sya no. EXCUSE ME. haha! ang tarush ko lang minsan.

O sya. dagdagan ko ulit tong rant ko kung sakaling di ako maka recover. =P

PBA MUSES 2012

1. Global Port Batang Pier - Sam Pinto

2. San Mig Coffee Mixers - Anne Curtis-Smith

3. Petron Blaze Boosters - Isabelle Daza

4. Barangay Ginebra San Miguel - Georgina Wilson

5. Alaska Aces - Vicky Morales

6. Talk N Text Tropang Texters - Alice Dixon

7. Rain or Shine Elasto Painters - Camille Guevarra (Mutya ng Pilipinas 2012)

8. Air 21 Express - Stephany Stefanowitz (Miss Earth 2012)

9. Barako Bull Energy Boosters - Ciane Simoes Xavier ( International Model)

10. Meralco Bolts - Stapanie Rowe (Artista Academy Aspirant)

after my wristwatch was stolen, at our own house, (wristwatch was given to me as my father's Christmas Gift last year.) I learned to appreciate the things that I have. And live my life the way it should be. Forget the person and his doing. After all, the alleged was my cousin. I blamed him though, but I forgave him. I know the Holy Spirit sank into me and told me to let it go. I cried over night. I even gone to my work with little eyes. Shattered. Tired. I even gone home early just to breathe. Now, as I am writing this, I thank God.

My father and my mother fought because of this issue. My father, who's an OFW was brought to the hospital because of High Blood Pressure. I felt guilt. Knowing that he was alone in Saudi Arabia, we are not there to accompany him. Thank God, my father was released the other morning.

I can do anything for my family. ANYTHING just to keep them safe.

again thank God for what happened. With Him by my side, all I can say is "BRING IT ON!"

"Thanking God after He answers a prayer is Gratitude; Thanking Him in advance is Faith."

Everyday We should be thankful He wakes us up. giving the days, hours and seconds to live and share. We should be happy. And after all what He did to save us, all we need to do is pray to communicate to Him.

"When the world puts you on your knees, All you have to do is pray"

Shout to the Lord. Thank Him. And share the love that you receive everyday. Not by just monetary but in living and all.

I offer my life to you Lord.

"When reason stops, FAITH begins." 

Pacquiao LOSE. Netizens SHOCKED.

Trending Topics after the fight. Philippines and Worldwide. Manny Pacquiao, a GenSan Native lost to Timothy Bradley today and all together NETIZENS roar over twitter and facebook. here are some reactions from International Celebrities:

DRAKE:

Miley Cyrus:

Katy Perry:

Oscar De La Hoya:

Bruno Mars:

Khloe Kardashian Odom:

Tyson Chandler of New York Knicks:

Nelly:

Rip Hamilton of Chicago Bulls:

Nick Carter:

LaMarcus Aldridge of Portland Trail Blazers:

Kim Kardashian:

Paulo Coelho:

I woke up this morning and i feel so blessed. in my whole 21 years of living on earth, I never had anything not to thank God of.  He gave me the best parents that everyone wants to have. Responsible, Loving and Respectful. They taught me to be the best woman I am now. They give me everything I needed and they let me do whatever I want and gave me the best lessons in life. My sister, she'd been my bestfriend since Day 1 of my life. always been there whenever I need for her and she's the only one that can easily understand. My relatives, for being my second family. My Friends, I cannot mention them all since they knew already who they are. For they touched my life so much and help me be the best I can be. I am on my way  to succession right now because of these people..I love you guys.

So happy to be me. Although I am not as perfect as everyone think of, I am contended  and happy in my life I am living:)

Dear John - Taylor Swift

Dear John - Taylor Swift Lyrics

(with Capitalization to uncover the meaning of the song. Based on Taylor Swift's Album: Speak Now.)

Long were the nights when my days Once revolVed around you

counting my footstEps praying the floor won't fall through again...

and my mother accuseD me of losing my mine

but i swore i was fine...

You paint me a blue sky and gO back and tUrn it to rain

and i lived in your chess game

but you changed the rules everyday

wondering which version of you i might get on the phone...tonight...

well i stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why...

dear john, i see it all now that you're gone

don't you think i was too young to be messed with

the girl in the dress cried the whole way home.

i should've known.

well maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame

or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away

and you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand

and i'll look back and regret how i ignored when they said

run as Fast as you can.

deaR john, is see it all nOw that you're gone

don't you think i was too young to be Messed with

 The girl in tHe drEss cried the whole way home

dear john, i see it all now it was wrong

don't you think 19's too young to be played by

your dark twisted games when i loVed you so

i shold'vE known.

you aRe an expert at sorrY

and keeping lines blurry

never impressed by me acing your tests

all the girls that you've run dry

have tired, lifeless eyes

cause you burned them out

but i took your matches before Fire could catch me

so don't look now

I'm shining like fireworks

over youR Sad empty Town...

Dear john, i see it All now that You're gone

don't you think i was too young to be messed with

the girl in the dress cried the whole way home

u see it all now that you're gone

don't you think i was too young to be messed with

the girl in the dress wrote you a song...

you should've known

you should've known

don't you think i was too young

you should've known...